Overcoming Mom Anxiety

The truth is for over 10 years I have struggled with anxiety. It was not until very recently that I realized how much it has affected me. I guess I don’t show it on the outside but I still deal with it internally. I use to feel like it had something to do with me or how I was made and I beat myself up about feeling that way because I truly thought something was wrong with me. After I had Olivia, I had a season of "post-partum" depression.  The anxiety sky-rocketed. After much therapy and counseling, I started the healing process and realized that when I feel “anxious” it’s not always due to something I did or someone did to me. It no longer controls me or my thought process. Took a lot of work, but like Iyanla says "I did my work".

I had to realize that Olivia (my daughter) was going to be okay. Even though I had to put her in daycare part-time, she is okay. (Being a stay-at-home mom is NOT for everyone. Don't allow ANY one to make you feel guilty. There are studies that say working moms (or entrepreneur moms) have more responsible children. Not sure if I believe that, but the point is that ANY one can prove a point using data. Just do the best you can do with what you have and give it ALL to God.....I digress).  I worried about what she would eat but even her daycare allowed me to manage her meals. I worried if the people that cared for her was really looking out for her, but then God showed me that there are only 3 other kids in her class and two adults. It’s not your typical daycare. In addition, one of her teachers is the sweetest person ever, she's in college, smart going to school to become a nurse. She’s been with Olivia now since she was 8 weeks old. She’s like her second mom. Makes me tear-up of thinking about it because she is SUCH a God-send. When I was looking for a good daycare I cried everyday and the process was horrible. The first daycare I walked in, did a short tour and walked out in tears. I couldn’t imagine leaving my little baby in that place. After failing to find a daycare that we were peaceful about, we prayed and asked God to send us to the place of His choosing. It had to be close to our home, small, with a early child curriculum and Christian-based at decent affordable price. I was VERY picky, and rightfully so. A few days later we found daycare connected to a church that was perfect! The price was perfect and we felt peace upon doing the tour and they have early childhood curriculum. Since then, Olivia has grown and loves all of her teachers and the staff.

She starts the next level early childhood for 18 months in August at a school that is one of the best Christian private school in the area and even still I felt anxiety about that. She will be around new students, new teachers at a new school. But then God reminded how he also sent us to this school as well. Bottom line….anxiety is an indicator that we are trying to hold on to something we were never meant to hold on to. When you give your concerns over to God, that is when peace comes. If you still feel anxious you haven’t FULLY released into His care. Trust in God brings peace in our hearts. It is that simple. What brings you anxiety? What haven't you released to God? What area are you not FULLY trusting God in?  We make it more complicated with this or that worry….but just like you trust the chair to hold you up when you sit down, blindly trust God. I wish I can say I was perfect in this area, but truth is….I’m on a steep learning curve trying to get better everyday.  I'm praying for you my fellow mom or woman friend dealing with anxiety.  If you were standing near me, I would hold your hand and say this prayer:

“God……..we need you. Heal us from every mental distraction that has our emotions out of order. Help us to not have anxiety. Help us to trust in you more. Walk with us closely God. Interrupt our day JUST to let us know your there. God thank you for every blessing that we do not deserve but that your GRACE has given us. Thank you for our children and our future children. Thank you for our families and our businesses. Lord, teach us to be content. Teach us to not look so far ahead that we don’t enjoy this moment with you. God we thank you…lead us on this journey. In Jesus name..Amen”

Mediation Scripture: Philippians 4:6-7

6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.